I want more!

Where is love found? That’s my question of the day. Where will one find love? Under a rock? Maybe beside my pillow tonight…

I’ve always been told that you’re not supposed to look for love but if I’m not looking is it just going to hit me in the face? I mean I have to keep my eyes open in order to see right?!

Well as the time passes, I’ve learned there’s no love to be found in Chicago. Wait before you get on me about this let me just explain! It truly is infested with “haters” and people who are no good in general. Everyone is soo caught up in themselves that they miss the finer things as well as the good in people. I try to make it a goal of mine to see the good in people and sometimes it becomes a game because often it’s hard to find!

I just wonder if it’s too much to ask to find someone who is passionate and dedicated to what they love. I want a DEEP lover, someone who can devote and indulge every once of himself into me when he’s not concentrating on his very own passion, whatever it may be.

I WANT MORE!

No more of these t-pains with his “backseat action” or 50 takin me to the candy shop or amusement park or WHATEVER!!

I want a dwele like in “old lovas” when he says “both of us coexist hand in hand…or maybe you can be my mpc be part of my everyday endeavor, when I touch your keys, your sweet melodies, they bring me pleasure”
Or even

a john legend who will kiss me underneath the stars and just doesn’t care who knows or sees it.

I could even deal with a Common who’s clothes are tight but doesn’t seem gay… just don’t break my heart. We could be like flava n delicious.

Who knew growing mentally with someone would be so much tougher than growing physically.

Well it’s time to admit who I am, that is the first step isn’t it?

I’m a J, a junkie of love. I’m addicted to love and the joy it brings but its time to go into rehab. I just might get lucky enough to be in the room next to Amy. During this process I hope to achieve success in self-fulfillment.. Wait a minute.. Not that kind of fulfillment! I mean I hope to grow mentally into the truest form of Me, whoever that may be.

So as many more documents love incidents are surely to occur.. Wish the best for my recovery.. I am in dire need. –J.